Monday, May 04, 2009

No Clue

I'm not really sure what I'm getting myself into. I'm also not really sure whether I'm actually worried about that or not. I'd like to think that sometimes it's good not to worry or over analyze a situation; sometimes it's good just to go with something.

I've been spending quite a bit of time with Mr. Green. (Every time I type that, I have the urge to speculate whether he did it in the Ballroom with the Rope or in the Conservatory with the Lead Pipe.) After last Saturday night and the draft party, I saw him again on Wednesday night. Then for kickball on Thursday. Then we spent Saturday at the beach and Saturday night at my house watching the Supercross Finals.

It's moving fast. I know it is. In the moments when I give myself a chance to think about it, I sometimes get a little panicky. Here I am, a girl that has always had a hard time committing, and I'm fresh out of a semi-disastrous relationship. Yet I'm running head-long into something with the very first guy I've dated. Am I crazy or what?

The heart of the matter is that I'm really enjoying the time I'm spending with Mr. Green (in the Library with the Revolver). He's really easy to be around, he's smart, he's ambitious and he's sweet. He hasn't done any of the game-playing crap that I had come to expect in the dating world after all those years in LA.

I don't want to worry about it. I don't want to spend time thinking that I'm rushing into something or that I'm on the rebound. I want to enjoy this without having to answer the questions (Like: Am I on the road to Boyfriend-ville? Do I even want to be?).

Lyrics of the Day

"Squeaky swings and tall grass, the longest shadows ever cast. The water's warm and children swim and we frolicked about in our summer skin. I don't recall a single care, just greenery and humid air." Death Cab for Cutie Summer Skin


Tilly said...

Dude. Just go with it! Trust yourself.

Not that this is at all the same situation, but since I first met my now husband, we have pretty much spent every night together since our first date and continue to do so. We just like to be together. No need to make it more complicated than it is.

Julie said...

Relax and enjoy....

Julie said...

Since you were in a relationship for a long time until recently, you are accustomed to a certain level of physical affection. Part of me wonders if you are seeking this out. But it also sounds like you have found a genuine connection with someone, and those are rare. It also sounds like he has his act together, unlike PC.

Anonymous said...

Check it out!

You just ate fast food for a few years and it was convenitent. Why don't you treat yourself to a nice porterhouse steak. Get it?